Sometimes, I feel like an imposter when I write. I doubt myself. Thoughts like, “Am I even a good writer?” or “Who is going to read this anyway?” suddenly pop up in my mind. For a year, I was very strict with myself, writing an article every single week. Lately, however, I've been more relaxed with my rule, allowing my writing to be more organic and spontaneous. Instead of treating it like another to-do item, I've embraced it as an art.
After a couple of weeks of not writing, for the first time in my conscious awareness, I felt the longing and missing of writing. I missed expressing my voice, and contributing to humanity through my words. This feeling of missing the act of expressing myself tells me that I am definitely not an imposter. Why would I be? I absolutely love doing it! It is a passion of mine and has been for a long, long time. For most of that time though, my ego was in charge, and I had thoughts that I wasn’t talented enough to be a writer and that nobody would want to read what I wrote. Much negativity and not so much sharing my writing came from being controlled by my ego.
I can see clearly now how many of my misfortunes (as an adult) were mere collateral of my life being run by my ego. I chased the wrong dreams and got in my own way every time I succeeded, ensuring I didn't get too comfortable in success, just in case I lost it. I was wired to bring myself down every time I reached new heights. This was all because of my wiring, because of what was familiar to me.
I've been on this incredible quest toward a successful career as a mindset coach and teacher, as a facilitator of healing through hypnotherapy, as a speaker, writer, and content creator. I'm working toward reaching a new level of wealth. I am creating a loving and respectful family environment in my roles as wife and mother. Those are my dreams and goals. I am actively pursuing them, achieving them, savoring the process, enjoying the ride, learning so much, and quantum growing.
I have never, for one second, stopped being a student. That is an eternal title I will carry: a passionate, committed, curious, humble, happy student of Earth, life, and universal love. In my most recent learning experience, in a live session with one of my favorite teachers, Mike Dooley, I learned the most amazing things. I received three incredible pieces of advice, three new perspectives on life and how to live, and three (hopefully easy) steps to continue my spiritual awakening and elevate my consciousness. I want to share them with you:
1. Whatever is IN the way, IS the way. Imagine you are meditating in silence, and suddenly a bird starts chirping. You might try to ignore the bird, resisting its presence to maintain your meditative state in silence. If you do, you'll focus more on the bird and less on your meditation. What if the bird, which seems to be in the way, is actually the way? Acknowledge the bird as a necessary element for your meditation in that moment.
2. Find neutrality. As human beings, we are wired to find polarities. To witness life from duality, always taking sides and judging. Explore what consciousness feels like at the midpoint between polarities. If someone does something and you feel drawn to pass judgment, try to see their pain. Understand what drives them to act that way from a neutral perspective. Pull away from the polarities. Stay in the middle.
3. Be in a state of joy as much as possible for as long as possible. Don't judge yourself when you're not in a state of joy. Move from the mind to the heart. Use the affirmation “I know who I am” to return to your center. Focus on what brings you joy now. There's nothing to do, nothing to prove, nothing you need to have to be in a state of joy. Being in a state of joy is the best contribution you can give to humanity.
I found these three teachings powerful and started practicing them immediately. It's incredible how quickly I see the benefits. More than once in the last 24 hours, I've felt the urge to pass judgment on someone or something and discuss it with my husband. I refrained, knowing it would lead to a polarity I wanted to avoid and bring me down from joy. It is never joyful to criticize others or speak ill of something.
As I was dropping my daughter off at school this morning, I felt a familiar feeling creeping up, gently filling me with sadness and tears. For the first time in I don't know how long, I saw this feeling as the way instead of being in the way. I'm still not sure what that means, but it was much easier to let go without resistance. I acknowledged it, let it be there, and then let it go, thinking that if it's there, there must be a reason, and there's nothing wrong with it being there. There's nothing to resist or try to escape from, and definitely, it's not something to get sucked into.
On my way home, I was listening to an audiobook, "The Big Leap," and the autor was talking about how common it for us not to allow ourselves to reach our Zone of Genius because we can't stand long periods of success and good feelings. I became immediately intrigued and fascinated by the topic, and ideas started to flow into my mind. A strong desire to write my weekly article emerged, and I thought about the imposter syndrome.
Instead of going down the same rabbit hole as usual, I chose to approach it with the three lessons I had just learned:
1. If the imposter syndrome is in the way, then it is the way. What’s it doing for me in this moment? It gave me the idea to write about it for my weekly article.
2. Stay away from polarity. Don't judge whether you've written or not, whether your articles are good or bad, whether someone reads them or not. Stay neutral. What’s the fact? I love to write, so I will. Forget everything else.
3. Be in joy. And oh boy, let me tell you, I am in so much joy right now. I came home, exercised, meditated, showered, had breakfast, and by 11:00 am, I was writing. I love to write; it brings me so much joy.
Choosing to apply what I learned quickly proved extremely beneficial. I saw as clear as water the drama I avoided from judging myself and others, the time I saved from wallowing in negative emotions, the more pleasurable and constructive conversations I had with my husband, and the focus throughout the day on the things that bring me joy.
I hope these three new powerful teachings, these new life philosophies I plan to integrate into my life, will also help you in some way. When I write, my intention is always to inspire, help, to elevate, and to spread love.
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Much love. 🥰
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